Timed

Take her back to the days when she was able to count the seconds

Back to the days when time moved in sync with her and her wandering feet

Searching for the familiar feeling of being lost, being new

Waiting patiently for her to catch up as she turned over yet another page of her “unputdownable” book

Meticulously calculating how many minutes it took to read that page

If it took me 20 minutes to read the last 30 pages then…how long until I reach the end?

But was that the important question?

O little beautifully inquisitive mind

Thirsting for answers, but more so the questions

An analytical bibliophile

She was inquisitve, careful, and precise

And time waited for her.

But it doesn’t remember her anymore.

~~~

“I like this place and willingly could waste my time in it”

 

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The Light

Did you know that a candle flame casts no shadow?

This is because the flame itself is the SOURCE of the Light.

A shadow is created when Light is blocked,

But if there is no barrier, no object, just Light

Then there is no room for darkness.

When we walk in the shadows, it can appear that there is an absence of Light, because it cannot be reflected in a world full of darkness.

But when you break through the darkness, you realise that the Light was there all along

Just on the other side of the shadows.

Being in the shadows produces a recognition of the beauty, power and transformation that the Light brings.

There is no darkness in Light, so if all you can see is darkness, walk in Faith of the Light that is approaching.

Yahweh.

What a beautiful sight it will be when the darkness fades.

                                                                      ———–

“The people who walk in darkness will see a great light. For those who live in a land of deep darkness, a light will shine.”- Isaiah 9:2 (NLT)

“For we live by faith, not by sight.” – 2 Corinthians 5:7 (NIV) 

 

She (Denial)

Denial
Will eat you like it’s Eid al fitr.
She will confuse you with
Monologues and soliloquies
Because everyone else is wrong but you

Cunny like the serpent,
Chameleon aesthetics.
Denial is the invisible spokesperson inside your head.

She shows up with no notice
Yet welcome
Because somehow you ended up missing her.

Let her float you away into naivety
Let her create you a world with no calamity
Let her make you a bed of roses
She knows it’s what you need

There’s enough time to get back to reality,
Later.

~ Reni’s midnight musings ~

The Letter

I found a lost letter today, some minutes away from home
Curiosity took over –
It read:
Please take care of my baby; underneath this blanket is my last dollar.
I ran back home and told my mother I loved her.
Writing 101 Day 5: Be Brief: You stumble upon a random letter on the path.You read it. It affects you deeply, and you wish it could be returned to the person to which it’s addressed. Write a story about this encounter. Today’s twist: Approach this post in as few words as possible.

Who Am I? (Stream of consciousness)


Stream of consciousness. Ha.

My mind is a continuously flowing stream

Of consciousness – I am ever aware

Always aware of what others will think

What others will say

About me.

Do they like me? But it’s not really the right question

Because I feel like I’m never really the real me

So the ‘me’ they may or may not like is just some…

Her

Not me.


Who am I?

The One within me is the I Am that I Am

But who am I?

I am made in His image; beautifully and wonderfully

But who am I?

The question that’s always on my mind

But no one can answer, except me.


I feel like I’m always counting something or analysing something or trying to decide something

If a microphone was connected to my thoughts the fuse would blow from overwork

Why do I worry so much?

Why do I worry so much when I can pray?

Why do I worry so much when I can cast all my burdens upon His shoulders?

So who am I?

He lives in me

who am I?

He LIVES in ME


He lives in me, yes

He loves me, He died for me, rose for me, cleansed all my sins for me

I am made new because of Him.

So who am I?

I am His Glory – Death could not hold Him down, the power of sin is forever broken

I am His Love – He paid the ultimate sacrifice and loves me with no condition

I am His Mercy – He gave His life even for those that condemned Him and did not deserve Him

I am His Joy – In His presence there is joy abundant, I am happy because He lives

I am His Presence  – Jesus Christ dwells in me, I am His temple, He is forever with me and will never forsake me.

I am His Voice – Speak through me O Lord, let your Words flow out of my heart and my mouth. Let me sing praises unto You. Let me worship You with all that I have and all that I am. I want to adore You from the depths of my heart so that people will see Your amazing Love radiate from my being. May my actions reflect You and my thoughts exalt You and my life proclaim that Thou. Art. Holy.

I feel that my words, no matter how much I try, how much I write, will never be able to sufficiently describe my thoughts toward You. So I ask that You speak through me.


I cannot replace You in my life O God.

Writing 101 Day 1: Today, take twenty minutes to free write. And don’t think about what you’ll write. Just write.

Be Your Song

People say that music is a universal language
So I like to think that a song isn’t always necessarily a
Musical composition with
Rhythm and lyrics and beats.
Your song might be your story;
The life you live
The things you say
The examples you give.
Now you may not know that someone’s looking up to you
But just incase,
Let your song be edifying.

Let your life echo the words that Jesus sang over you when He said:
You are the light of the world,
A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.
The gifts God blessed you with should not be hidden
Because you were blessed to bless someone else
So let your song be beautiful.
Let people in the dark see your light.
Light that radiates not only when your situation is all right,
But also when despite the light all you see, is darkness.
But you have been called out of the darkness into His marvellous light
So He always gets you through,
because He knows the plans He has for you.
So for the people in the dark who wonder about the source of your light,
Let your song be heavenly.

There’s always gonna be someone who is, you might think, “better.”
But if your life is a song it only makes perfect sense that it should reflect you. So, trying to be someone else..
I mean, at the end of the day
They’re singing their own song.
So all you’ll really be making is a parody
And yeah I say parody cos it’s funny
It’s a funny way of showing God you appreciate the life He gave you.
The Bible says be fruitful and multiply
But if all you’re doing is subtracting,
Trying to transform yourself into someone else,
Feeling you have to accomplish the exact same things that they’ve done,
Then what was the purpose of your creation?
You were born unique so don’t die as a version of someone else.
Stop trying to adapt your song into a melody that’s pleasing to everyone.
Personality one today, three tomorrow
Saving personality two for next week.
And just in case these adaptations of yourself don’t work out and you finally accept the original,
Let your song be you.

                                                                                                                               – By Reni Olagoke

 

Hello 2015!

Happy New Year guys!

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a blessed New Year’s day. I told myself that I had to make a post before the end of the first week in 2015, and I know I’m cutting it close, what with today being the 7th!

I don’t really know what to write about but at the same time I have so much to share. The year 2014 made me realize a couple of things about myself, and more:

  1. When you doubt yourself, you doubt God too – I realized this in the areas of my education (A-levels) and worshiping at church. You see, a part of me felt that I had done well in my exams but I also doubted and had a lot of ‘what if’ thoughts. Obviously with this doubt came prayer upon prayer for God’s intervention with the marking of my papers. With my worship, there were many days when I felt that I couldn’t sing, I couldn’t play the instruments, as in I didn’t have a ‘good enough capability’ etc. But the thing is that if I’m praying for God to help me get good grades, help me bless people with my worship, but at the same time deprecating myself, isn’t that paradoxical? If I was made in the image of God then I can do all things through Him, cos He is within me. At the same time we’re all humans, so mistakes are acceptable! Personally I still have to keep reminding myself of this, that it’s OKAY not to be perfect…We are all on a journey, and we need to be patient with God. Think about just how patient God is with us! Philippians 1:6 – “Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ” (NKJV)
  2. Sometimes your worst enemy is yourself/Sometimes you’re the one holding yourself back

In this new year I’m hoping to be:

  1. Crazier for God and calmer for the world
  2. Free. One word, that’s it. Yet it holds so much meaning; I want to be free with my faith, I want to be free with my worship, and I want to be free in who I am, who God made me to be. 2 Timothy 1:7 – “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” (NKJV) I’m sure I don’t only speak for myself when I say that fear has hindered me from doing so many things I wanted to, such as the fear of what others think of me etc. Particularly though, I’m usually afraid to be the only one doing a particular thing, and tend to find acknowledgement only when I see others doing the same thing. I’ll give a basic scenario: When I’m at church or fellowship and the worship is so powerful, I can feel myself getting moved my the words etc but then FEAR, it’s like this little voice in my head holding me back from reaching that place of complete freedom and peace in the Lord. So sometimes I might even look around to see if anyone else is lifting up their hands, are their eyes closed? no? Maybe I should keep mine open then..put my hands down a little..maybe lower my voice in case it doesn’t sound good to the person sat next to me etc etc.

But you see, as it says in the above verse, fear does not have a legal place within us, because it is NOT of God. The only fear we should inhabit is the reverential fear of God, our elders and so on. When you fully love yourself and are confident (power) in who you are, you won’t get carried away by what others think of you, because as long as you’re rooted in the Word and guided by the Holy Spirit you’ll be able to discern right and wrong and live a life pleasing to Him and yourself (sound mind). You’ll be happy too! Because in the presence of the Lord, there is fullness of Joy (abundant!)

And I know this is a lot easier said than done, trust me. But I intend to embark on this journey from this year onward. I’ll let you guys know when I get to the finish line 🙂

Stay blessed;                                                                                                                                                                       Reni.